update-O

shit! im starting to have some feelings that my maid didnt wash my clOthes! instead of washing them, she just put them back into my wardrobe! why!?!? alrite, here goes, was home late last nite, so my clothes would be washed naturally in e morning rite? so ok, so i would assume, her efficiency wouldnt be tt good. but how was i to noe? e top that i wore e nite before is already in my wardrobe now! eew! gonna ask her bout tt! omg! why do i always haf so much maid woes! urgh*

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

doubts

these few days, ive been wanting to blog, but whenever i log into blogger, my mind just went into total blank, forcing me to close IE and con't with whatever i was doing.. mmm...

neway, am online, but closed my msn, dun wish to chat with a certain some1. actually, that certain some1 is my bf.. call me petty call me silly, wadever. but i really really really hate it when he indulges himself in those mindless games and totally forgets bout the existence of his own gf.. fell asleep a little while after i reached home. slept till bout 930? and after i woke, my 1st thought was : did he msn/sms me? i checked both. -ZLICH- nothing. alrite fine den. waited till quite awhile. couldnt stand it animore, msn-ed him. didnt reply. fine.

smsed him he replied with a : doing what u said i would do loh (refering to gaming) ok, fine, wad a reply..

let my ego down and called him, didnt chat with him for more than 5 sentences when "hey, so&so called me already leh" AM I SUPPOSED TO PUT DOWN? alrites. i asked him what for? "he also playing that blardy game" OK! FINE!

suprisingly, i didnt flare up. but im feeling horrible. so what if he got 8-5? so what? i dun feel a thing.. i mean, there's no difference, instead, we've been quarrelling more since his holidays.

u may say, it's sucha small issue.. yes indeed. whatever.

*shrugs*

shoeeee

argh, i have so much fustrations to vent! and i all nagged it out to eug. yes, work! nono, not the workload, workload's fine. just that e people that im working with are starting to irriate me! i mean, overall they are fine, just that the way they work and the way i work is diff. got trf to another dept to cover some1, will be back to my original dept in a few weeks time! QUICK PLS QUICK! urghhh*

okok, relax jia relax! everything will be fine! dun fret, dun fret~ just hope that time will pass quickly and let me go back to my original dept!!! i dun wanna work nxt to a "pen must put at the angle, paper must be straight, phone just be 45 degrees to the table, do this and not that" kinda person... okok, im exaggerating e situation, but there's some truth in that alrite? just a tad too much. :
relax! a few weeks will pass *blink blink blink* just like tat! OOOOza :) cheers people! let me go back to export!

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oh ya did i mention? eug got into air force, as a air force tech i think.. robin, demin also got into tt.. same place.. but right now they are having some courses before the real thing commence. so i dunno which would be his perm base.

right now it's at paya lebar air base, 25min (bus ride) & 5 min(taxi ride) away from his house.

wooot* good eh? i just hope he will remain there & not to other air bases when his training ends. cus tt place is quite convenient for him la.. nothing much already.. he got into a 8-5 (for now) vocation and yeps, meeting him everyday, once again, which means, i will be getting less rest! urgh* =P but of cus his company's worth it :)

niteO!

mundane

okok, that pic of mago is pretty erm, ugly yea? haha :X

nth much to post, life's pretty boring, same old routine everyday. :\ work - eug - home - work - eug - home

did quite some shopping last week* yippies happy girl! but at the same time fell for some other stuff again. :\ when will this cycle ever end? alrites, alrites, self motivation, my rainy-days fund is going to a dead end & my bills are coming! it's PAP day, Pay and Pay.. yearning to go sentosa.. when can i go? no time no time! haven been to sentosa for God knows how long.

*whistle*

yawns yawns, bed time soon.. nite nite.

oh ya! just for yr info, pls dun go watch brother grim! it's really boring. omg. cant believe it! i mean, i always haf something good to say bout each movie, bt this movie really sux! omg. i fell asleep twice in that movie. -___________-"

longest yard was nt bad, but just that i dun understand america football rules, so cant fully understand e movie. but overall, it was nice..

One More Chance was like e typical jack neo movie. -_-" just like money no enuff, not much innovative ideas frm jack neo, used e same old plot, like hui-ge's mother dying of cancer, borrowing from banks/loan sharks, wife leaving, den in e end turn around cus she's too touched blah blah blah, it's e same, just that they turned e story towards jail life.. but i like e "lang jia ham ah, lang jia ham ah" that stupid song..

brother grim sux! grr*

Oh God!

Oh God! i am suffering badly from constant nagging and PERSISTANT chattering from eugene's aunty. God. Please help me, im going to break down really really soon. the nagging and chattering is still just by my ear and i cant take it animore. really im going to cry soon if all these doesnt stop.

acc-ed eug's aunt & grandma to hiS POP. arrived at 1.50pm at pasir ris mrt, was really early. supposed to meet them at 2pm and the bus doesnt arrive till 2.30 (as written on the paper) and at the mrt, i tot i can haf some good bonding time with meiling, whose bf, ah bear, is oso POPing. but alas, how was i to noe that her aunt and grandma was waiting at the mrt for me, flagging me down. hafta say bye to meiling as she went to look for ah bear's family.

was to bus terminal at bout 2.20 and the queue was already quite long. got onto the 2nd bus and the really headache parts starts from here. get ready. the bus was overcrowding with people and the poor people like us, hafta stand on thru-out the whole trip, which was fine with me since it's just 10-15min away. BUT how was i to noe that blardy hell, they made us wait in the stuffy and hot and overcrowding bus for 45min! yes for the whole of 45min, i stood inside the cramp (trust me, it's really cramp) & hot bus. and what reason? we dunno. we arent given any. so i just assume the ferry point is overcrowded too.

and the most fustrasting part is that his aunt, KEEP TALKING OR RATHER NAG! once she wanna say sth, she will repeat it AT LEAST 3 times. she will go :

"slowly eat la hor, it's only 2 ok?"
*takes a bite of burger*
"slowly eat, 2 o'clock only"
*takes a fries*
"slowly eat, 2.05 only"

-________-" tt was before all the long waiting time.

in the bus she goes
: aiyo my legs tired
: aiyo why they so slow
: aiyo
: aiyo aiyoo

when we reach ferry terminal,. she still nagged and nagged and nagged. *or perhaps to her, it's just SMALL talk*

and now i noe that she's a giordano member & that during her birthday month, she got additional dunno-how-mani-percent discount, jsut had a chalet with her church mates, eug & sis used to frequent changi beach when they were younger, she had a pair of scissors which was given to her by her grandma, she doesnt like to eat fries with chilli & so on and so forth.. nice?

and another fustrating stuff. while we were waiting for e ferry, there was a ferry straight in front of us, calling us to board it but the stupid NSF personnel, dun allow us to board, giving the reason : there's a bigger capacity ferry coming up and u are supposed to board tt, fair enuff.

30 min later

Please board THAT ferry. -__________-" WTH!!!!!! HOW EFFICIENT?

and so nvm, we arrived at tekong at 4.05pm, just on time to see the ending. how great right? was so blardy disappointed and pissed... i dun think it's my fault that i missed most of the performance loh. cus afterall, 1stly, the pickup time was at 230, we werent late, it's the blardy hold up at the terminal that wasted our 45 min. and after tt? the ferry hold up which wasted another 30 min, totaling up would be 1 hr 15 min. and guess what, we reached at 4.05 rite? thinking *phew* teh parade just started! but no! the parade ended! why? wth? I took out my invitation, thinking, SHIT WE ALL MISSED THE CORRECT TIMING! but BEHOLD, i stated

"Which will be held on Tuesday, 06 September 05, at 1600 hrs"

which is at 4pm right? i didnt read wrongly! bt when i got hold of the iternary, it states that THE WHOLE CEREMONY STARTS AT 3! BLARDY HELL HOW DID THEY INVITE PEOPLE? OMG I WAS SO BLARDY PISSED. but what can i do? nothing. was very pissed & fustrated, with eug's aunt & e way BMTC handle stuff.

set me thinking, it's only a grad ceremony, one that had been planned ages ago. but what if 1 day, a disaster hits Singapore? something like Hurricane Katrina. will NS, who are supposed to help, mess up everything. the POP, they had ample time to prepare for it, but yet it turn out to be sucha mess. what if sth that they didnt foresee happen? will the same happen? omg. scary. what's the point of inviting people over to the end of the ceremony? whole thing ends at 4ish, and the time to be seated(as written on invitation card) states 4. disappointed. throughly.

neway, on a lighter note, i DID enjoy the performance that e recurits put up. really coordinated and feels really nice. like warm feeling, as in they did all those together, trained together, and so on. but it was that really nice feeling that gave me even bitter feelings, cus i missed e other performances, like e marching & the drill and blah blah blah. but e performance was awesome, esp e part whereby they threw their cap in happiness, like "YEA! IVE GRADUATED" kinda thing.. and the shouts of joy! woot. really nice. :)

oh, also had fun taking pictures of them.. :) i dunno how to phrase tt sentence.. i dunno how to describe it. but im just like a proud gf.. seeing my just POP-ed bf enjoying himself with his bunkmates. :) ahh,no wonder they say BMT is the funnest part of NS. May he always enjoy fun in NS :)

*cheers*

have yet to upload e pix. will upload 'em when i hav e time. right now im really tired. long long day ya?

i like tis.

and tis too. ani1 wanna get 'em for me?

cheers*

:)

ever since eugene got enlisted, he started to lie to me. in a good way i guess! but i nvr noe when will it turn bad ya? =P was told that he will be booking out only at 3ish on sat, & i believed. as im nt a *ahem* last min person, i got ready at 1ish, prepared to go pasir ris lib to get myself some good reads and den he msg-ed me

him: going to rain already, u prepare ok already?
me: just finish bathing, gg out soon

(kinda pissed tt he's so demanding)

went to toilet, and on my way back i heard my phone ringing. and dunno why my natural instinct was to look at my main door and *wala! boo bee boo* he's there :) what a liar! *bleah*

went back his place for his change of clothes, and his usual dose of DOTA! which is kinda interesting. but i WUNT get involved with it! cus it's my enemy~ *heuueaheaueahuaehaeueah* was quite bored at his place, while he's indulging in his DOTA, the photo whore in me suddenly appear! and *click click click click click click*

booked tix for 1140 The Cave, and off we went to marina for our dinner~ at 9ish - 10. finsihed jsut on time for our movie! what gluttons we are.

me & my looove

me & my love 2

photo whore!

went bugis, suntec today and yeps, our craze is still there. wasted so much $! arghhh*

saw i dunno what issit called, but my bro love him/it

i-dunno-what-issit-called

i-dunno-what-issit-called 2

and my brothers suddenly bombarded me with lotsa qns.

: he got transform anot
: got phoneix?
: got bad people??
: he got sing the song? (u mean he can sing?)

the power rangers of my days haha*


MAGO, prettiest golden retriever ever~ :)

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sigh, it's sunday again. but i guess tis sunday shld be the best in these 3 mths, cus he's booking out again on tue! his POP! yea yea! will be going for his POP! along with his aunt and his grandma! yeayeayea got extra tix to go! else i dun think i cn go hahaha. but *phew* i wun get to miss it afterall. hehe quite excited.. but in a few days time, he fate will be decided.. haha. i do hope he gets 8-5! hehe! or if he doesnt, then.. i hope he gets into a good 1~ *bleah*

it's high time i format my com! so blardy laggy! okok *mental note*